Currently Listening Graduation By Kanye West American Boy see related

I said I wont write anymore but I can't resist not writing especially when I have my beautiful beloved monitor in front of me all by myself at 4.00am.

Just got home 10 minutes ago from mamak with my beloved woot woot. In fact we spent the whole day together doing what couples do on the weekend ie having good cum fattening meals, watching movies, holding hands strolling the mall and pet center - admiring marine fishes. He held my hands so tight for so many hours till both our palms were sweaty. Its been really long since I last did all these..for years in fact.

Yet it feels good, to be and live in a normal relationship.

The week has been pretty rough for me. Was down with influenza, fever and to rub salt on the wound, I had my aunty visit. Tempers flared, sneezing non stop and almost losing my voice. Thats how bad it went. That was after I travelled outstation for work - squeezing my schedule to meet 3 clients in 3 hours.

So I decided that was enough for me. I took a day off after all the travelling just to replenish my long deprived sleep. Waking up in the afternoon on a weekday feels great. Then I had a call from Mel asking me to go sushi for lunch. We did some shopping, lotsa chatting and some camwhoring.

Currently Listening Better in Time By Leona Lewis Better in time see related

Have been listening to Leona Lewis' "Better in time" for almost 20 times now. Somehow I really love the lyrics, its like trying so hard to recuperate after a failed relationship yet trying to love urself at the same time.

Every failed relationships comes with tears, sorrow and mental setback.

Which is what my blog was all about it. Getting in and out of a relationships, falling in and out of place over and over again. Trying to stay positive after every relationship with the hope that I will find that person who can feel the void in me. It wasnt an easy task, in fact its one of the toughest thing in life. Some people live a whole life trying to find the other half, while some died without even finding it.

Its ironic isnt it? After writing for almost 3 years. Its time for me to retire from my Xanga. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suffering from anymore depression. Its just that I found what I have been looking for all these while. I've learnt that this blog which is focus mainly on my doomed relationships, pains and dissapointments. All these should go..

I shall no longer rant for what I failed to obtain. Instead I will search and learn from what I've failed.

Thanks to all those who has been reading my blog. I really love you guys and hope you guys are always happy. In fact lately I have seen alot of my friends who are pessimistic in relationships happily attached and some who were in affairs are moving towards the right path and having normal & decent relationships. Am really happy for all of them.

Currently Listening Back Home By Westlife Something Right see related

I'm officially a year older now!

Although it was a very modest celebration but I think I had a good one. It sounds superstitious but every year without fail, I have shitty days prior to my birthday. After all those dramas, hoo- ha and swing of mood, I was not much in a celebration mood.

I seriously expect to celebrate the countdown with Teddy by my side and yakking along with the bf on the phone past midnight as he is usually out station on Mondays. Yet I had a very big surprise when I received a message from him asking me to get myself ready at 8.00pm for dinner. I know it seems very mediocre to you guys but to me its a really big and sweet surprise as I really never thought he would abandon part of his job to be here for me.

True enough he came over, picked me up. We had a very fat dinner at a local steak house. Wanted to go star gazing later but we were too full by then and he was tired and still sickly. Instead we just dropped by his place where there were games and pressies waiting for me. It was a very private affair but I enjoyed every moment of it nevertheless. Altho he was the only one singing the birthday song and doing the elephant dance but I couldn't stop laughing and smiling. It was sweet, very sweet in fact.

We had a great night and true enough, surprises come sweeter when you don't expect.

What could be better than waking up with you bosses, friends and coliqs greeting you. Then I got a contract signed, walked into office with a big birthday card waiting for me on my table. Hours later, I received a big bouquet of roses from a guy friend. There was also a surprise from my coliqs when they walked to me with a big birthday cake after lunch. It was sweet, very very sweet of them.

If you think it has ended there, NO! at 3.00pm I received a call from office telling me another cake has arrived and bf got me another fattening dinner. When everything ended at 11.55pm, he held me tight and kissed me forehead telling me " I'm so glad to be the last to celebrate the last hours of your 25, the first to celebrate your 26th and the final person to end you day's celebration."

When I got home, I saw an envelope and a pressie from my folks and my bro.

I have another dinner with boss waiting for me next week.

It was a tiring but definitely one of the best birthdays I ever had. To be surrounded by people who loves you and care for you. I'm so grateful to be still here celebrating my 26th birthday and to you people who still drop by my blog despite I seldom update it.

I will be away for the next few days - attending The 16th World Congress on Information Technology

Currently Listening Spirit By Leona Lewis Bleeding Love see related

Must all rejections end up with both becoming strangers?

Or is it so typical of a man?

That they come to you only when they want or expect something from you?

Weeks ago, we were so close and all of a sudden after the rejection we have stopped talking. There were no more morning wake up calls, no more lunch, no more calls or visits "just to say hi".

All of a sudden he dissapears from your MSn list, from ur sight, from his usual hangout places and best of all you name was just some stranger to him.

His last word was " revenge is best served cold"

Talk bout men women being sensitive, what about men who avoids the world after a rejection.

One word

Absurb.

Very dissapointing.